Ode to Books

I am immersed in books. At work, I help students with reading comprehension, I facilitate discussions about literature, and then I help students write about the books they’ve read. At school, I read and research and write about literature. At home, I read to my children and listen to my six-year-old as he reads aloud. When I volunteer in his classroom, I am often asked to help his classmates as they struggle through phonics readers. In the playground, I bring picture books and read to the children who want a break from more active play.

And I love it, all of it. If someone had told me when I was a kid that this would be my life when I grew up, I would have been utterly content.

After all, I was the otherwise obedient child who read under my covers at night by the dim light of my nightlight and then swiftly pretended to be asleep when my mama would come to check on me. I was the child who preferred reading to playing, to watching television, to playing video games, to practically everything. I was the child for whom books was the ultimate pleasure, a world where I could see and experience all things and all places and all times.

I’m still quite romantic about books. I still believe in the transcendent power of stories.

I also just really, really love books. I love the smell of books – the crisp smell of new paper and the musty smell of old tomes. I love how a book feels in my hand, I love the texture of the paper as I turn a page. I love the experience of curling up with a book in a comfy place. It is probably unsurprising, therefore, that as much as I embrace and often prefer the digital versions of newspapers and even magazines, I don’t like e-readers. They aren’t bad per se, but my attachment to the experience of reading actual books and to books as objects in and of themselves makes reading e-books a comparatively cold experience.


(I’m actually not a huge fan of Gertrude Stein. I think her work is fascinating and important, but it doesn’t move me. Elizabeth Gaskell’s novels have been on my reading list for a long time, but I’m determined to read them this summer. Then again, my summer reading list seems to add a few titles every other day, and Gaskell’s novels have been on the list since last summer.)

(Mostly, I picked these books because they matched my outfit!)

Sweater: vintage Philippe Adec silk and cashmere red sweater (hand-me-down from my mama)
Jacket: Marc Jacobs (old)
Shirt: J.Crew
Shorts: Q40 glam leather shorts (also worn here and here)
Tights: J.Crew
Shoes: J.Crew
Accessories: Chanel sunglasses (hand-me-down from my mama), Forever 21 headband and teal earring (worn as brooch), Herkimer diamond earrings from Principessa (gift from Yubo)
Nail Polish: essie turqoise and caicos
Lipstick: NARS Jungle Red lip liner and Red Lizard lipstick
Books: teal giraffe notebook by Florence Balducci for Anthropologie (gift), Selected Writings of Gertrude SteinThe Cranford Chronicles by Elizabeth Gaskell

Blue Bow Belt

I was up for a good chunk of last night with my youngest son who came down with stomach flu yesterday so I had a hard time waking up this morning. I finally dragged myself out of bed about 10 minutes before I usually leave the house for work so I had barely enough time to throw on some clothes and dash out the door. I did my makeup in the car (does it make it better if I tell you I save my eye makeup for red lights?) and, to my dismay, I got a parking ticket at school today because in the rush this morning I had forgotten to switch my pass from my husband’s car, which I drove yesterday, to my car.

So yes, wrong side of bed today and all that.

Still, I absolutely love my job; it’s hands-down the most rewarding and enjoyable job I’ve ever had so this morning wasn’t a complete wash in the least. I started one-on-one conferencing with my students on their papers this morning as well, and that’s one of my favorite parts of teaching writing. You can do so much with a student one-on-one that just isn’t possible in a large group.

Except for brief periods where I wanted to be a ballerina (tutus! need I say more?), a singer (I have had a longtime and ongoing infatuation with female singer-songwriters), and a lawyer (like my mama!), I’ve really always wanted to be a teacher. I adored nearly all my teachers growing up, and the idealist in me has always wanted to do something that made a difference in the world for good. In my last year of college I was actually applying to teaching credential/education MA programs with the goal of becoming a high school English teacher, but the birth of my first child sort of derailed those plans. In the past several years, I’ve tried a few other careers, but nothing seemed to fit. So it makes me really happy now to be doing something that I not only believe in, but I really, really enjoy.

Since I was in such a rush this morning, I wasn’t really thinking about anything in particular when I threw my outfit together this morning, but I like how it ended up. I nearly always try to buy clothes that I know I can mix and match with other items in my closet. You know those magazine articles that show how you can wear one shirt 5 different ways? That’s how I think when I shop. If I can’t imagine several ways an item can be worn then it really has no business in my closet to begin with.

I’ve never really worn belts before this year so I’m hesitant to buy them because I’m not always sure how or what to wear them with. This little blue bow belt was an impulse buy last year during one of Nordstom’s big annual sales, and I almost regretted buying it after it hung in my closet unworn for months afterward. Lately, though, I think I’m getting the hang of this whole belt thing.

I think belts and other accessories are great ways to incorporate trends without a big commitment. For instance, neon colors are really big right now, but no matter how much I love these uber-popular neon bags from The Cambridge Satchel Company, I can’t afford to spend that much on something that I’m not ready to commit to wearing for the next 10 years at least. But this neon yellow belt from J.Crew? I think I could splurge on that (maybe next month though?), and I know I could wear it a ton of different ways. And then the canvas bag I’m wearing from fieldguided is a nice little nod to neon without being totally overwhelming or breaking the bank.

I’ve talked about this before, I think, but that’s part of why I really like nail polish as well. Not only is nail polish just plain fun, but it’s an easy, low-commitment way of incorporating bright and silly colors. I don’t like manicures (I know, I’m weird) so I buy my own polish and paint my nails myself. It’s not always never super perfect, but I feel better about buying one new nail polish color a month than I would about getting a manicure every few weeks.

My mama, however, is always a little appalled by my nail color choices, I think. I admit that perhaps I take a little teeny bit of pleasure in her mildly disapproving “tsk tsks” though. Maybe in another ten years I’ll have completely grown out of this little bit of post-teenage rebellion.

And then on the opposite spectrum are my pearls, a wedding gift from my grandmother, that I know I’ll be wearing when my own grandchildren are getting married. My grandmother originally bought me a very, very long string of freshwater pearls, which she then had split into two lengths – the long one I’m wearing now with a pearl shortener clasp (also a gift from my grandmother) that makes it a few inches shorter than it would be otherwise – and a choker length necklace that I wore on my wedding day. As a set I can wear them so many different ways.

Shirt: Mikkat Market (also worn here)
Dress: laurie b. cashmere and tulle shift, worn as skirt (also worn here)
Tights: J.Crew
Shoes: J.Crew
Bag: fieldguided
Accessories: Nordstrom blue leather skinny bow belt (similar at Forever 21), Forever 21 bow hair clip (old), pearls (gift from grandmother) worn with pearl shortener clasp (similar here), Herkimer diamond earrings from Principessa (gift from Yubo)
Nail Polish: essie turqoise and caicos
Lipstick: NARS Dragon Girl Velvet Matte Lip Pencil

White Lace, Red Tights

I’m really enjoying this semester so far even though I’m not taking any literature classes. While I do feel rather lit-deprived, the pedagogy course I’m taking has made teaching so much fun. It’s odd because the reading for the course often puts me to sleep it’s so dry, but the stuff I learn I then try out on my students and – lo and behold – it works! It’s so awesome!

In addition to the pedagogy course, I’m taking a required course in linguistics. I took a year of linguistics in college for my math GE requirements (I know, it’s weird that linguistics counted for math, but I was beyond thankful it did). I didn’t love it back then, but it was mildly interesting and it’s kind of a neat trick to be able to translate things into IPA. I can’t decide how I feel about the course I’m taking now for my graduate program. I see the usefulness in being able to understand the back-end, so to speak, of English, particularly when it comes to grammar, but my professor likes to go on tangents, as do some of my classmates, which means that often we spent half the class discussing things that have nothing to do with anything remotely associated with linguistics. It’s not that I mind tangents as a rule, but when it wastes half of a three hour class, I get irritated. Every wasted hour is time I could have spent eating dinner with my family, tucking my kids into bed, or watching Downton Abbey, dammit.

Aside from that particular life-shattering burden, school and work are engaging and fulfilling. I’m tutoring in the freshman writing lab this semester as well, and it’s nice being able to work one-on-one with students. And the discussions in my pedagogy course are so fun, mostly because my colleagues are amazing. It’s so great to be a part of a group of such motivated, engaged, hard-working, and yes, idealistic people. I know that in all probability we will all eventually end up grumpy, cynical, and bitter, but I really, really hope not.

Actually, if I ever end up like that, I hope I stop teaching and go do something else that I can be idealistic about.

This outfit was inspired by this Valentine’s Day-themed wedding shoot I stumbled upon while doing research for my parents’ upcoming 30th wedding anniversary party, specifically this photo. I loved the combination of the white lace dress with the red tights so much and her dress looked so similar to the one in my own closet, that I figured I could pull something similar together.

This dress is so soft and feminine, and I like how the red punches it up a bit and cuts down on some of that softness. I feel so different wearing this dress styled this way than, say, this way.

My hair is based off this Refinery 29 tutorial – I first did my hair like this for the holiday party my girlfriends and I throw annually. It’s super easy and even though my hair is still pretty short, I can still just manage to make it work. I like that it’s sort of messy; it feels very feminine, but in a un-fussy I-did-my-hair-in-under-a-minute type of way. Which I did!

I also really like the way it sets off this headband. It feels very Grecian.

Can you see my sunburn setting in? Stupid uber-pale skin. Nah, I like my blindingly pale porcelain skin, but its tendency to burn is kind of a pain. (Mind the puns!) Must remember to apply sunscreen to my shoulders now that the weather is nice enough not to require layering.

Dress: Anthropologie (also worn here)
Blazer: Madewell Academy Blazer (also worn here)
Tights: J.Crew
Shoes: Zara wedges
Bag: vintage (from ebay)
Accessories: Anthropologie headband (old), Forever 21 hairpins (old) and scissor necklace, Herkimer diamond earrings from Principessa on Abbot Kinney (Valentine’s gift from Yubo)
Nail Polish: essie watermelon
Lipstick: NARS Heat Wave

Blogging While Underage

I’ve spent a lot of time this week in this bed snuggling with this little bundle of snotty yumminess. Everybody’s sick in this house, but today my oldest (aka pooh bear) is back at school and piglet (above) is prancing around the house demanding SNACKS and Yubo is looking hot in a suit and the skinny tie I bought him while he goes on interviews.

I, on the other hand, am still confined to my bed.

I’m sick and have in fact been in bed wearing the same sweats and Yubo’s long-sleeve shirt since Wednesday night when I came home from class and threw myself into bed. I knew I was sick by Tuesday night, but I had promised a friend I would teach her freshman composition class about blogging for a blog project they have and then I had a seminar class in the evening. It just doesn’t do to let down your friends or miss the first day of a class. Still, by Wednesday night I felt like crawling into the fetal position and crying about how much I hurt. I missed work Thursday morning and today I’m missing volunteering in my son’s class and lunch with a friend I haven’t seen in months. I hate missing things, but it hurts to move right now and, besides, there’s no reason to infect my students, a classroom full of six-year-olds, and my poor friend. At least that’s what I’m telling myself to make myself feel better.

Even though I probably should have been in bed, the blogging lesson I gave for my friend’s class was pretty fascinating. Not so much my lesson, but the perspective of the students I was teaching. In a lot of ways, the generation of kids coming of age right now have lives that are much more technology integrated. When I was in high school, everybody had pagers and memorized “pager code” (143 637! right? anyone?), AOL was still king of the internet (“You’ve got mail!”), I could sing along with the noise that the dial-up made when it was trying to connect to the internet, and over the summer I got in trouble for hanging out in AIM chat rooms. Now there’s twitter and facebook and blogs and the internet is wireless and you’re online as soon as you turn on your computer. Internet is on your phone and actual books, newspapers, and magazines are being hailed as things of the past. (To which I solemnly declare – NEVER!)

So when I agreed to teach my friend’s class of nineteen year olds about blogging, I expected my instruction to be at least somewhat redundant. I mean, setting up a blog isn’t that much more complicated than setting up a facebook account, is it? (Fun fact: I had a blog for years before I set up a facebook account. Actually, I had a blog before facebook existed.) And even if I didn’t expect most of the students to actually write a blog, I did assume that they read blogs. Interestingly enough, NONE of them had ever written a blog. One of them read a non-tumbr blog on a regular basis (a blog on a molecular biology, as that’s his major – I thought that was pretty cool!). Two more of them knew what tumblr was and occasionally read tumblr blogs. The other dozen and a half of them – nothing. So has blogging become passe amongst the so-called internet generation?

I look at the blogosphere today and it seems to me to be vibrant, diverse, and constantly evolving. When I started blogging (circa 2001, baby!), my blog was basically a very literal interpretation of the medium – my private diary made public. Public in that my mother and my best friend read it, at least. It was a lot of angst and posts consisting entirely of angsty quotes. (Forgive me, I was young.) After I became pregnant with my son in 2005, my husband and I started a baby blog to share our lives with our far-flung friends and relatives, but in a totally unexpected turn of events, strangers started reading our blog. Strangers who wrote blogs themselves. And then suddenly, there I was, plugged right into the whole mommy (and daddy) blogging thing. Not long after, I and some of the women I had “met” via blogging started Kimchi Mamas, which continues today as a place for mothers of Korean American children to share, discuss, debate, and reflect. My next blog was another personal blog, part mommy blog, part design/fashion blog, and meanwhile I picked up professional blogging gigs writing about fashion and parenting. And after an extended blogging hiatus, now there’s this, my newest blog project, which is much more compartmentalized but which reflects an ongoing passion and interest of mine.

I’m not sure why my friend’s students don’t read blogs. My teaching partner, who is ten years younger than me and so is much closer in age to those (and our) students, reads blogs. I know because he was wearing a hyperbole and a half t-shirt one day and we got to talking. (He was also wearing a Harry Potter t-shirt the day I met him, which automatically endeared him to me forever and ever.) At some point this semester, the professor of our class has committed me to teaching blogging for our class so I guess I’ll have another sample from which to ponder this quandary.

I think blogs are such an amazing medium for self-expression, and I think that using them as part of a composition class makes a lot of sense. I hope that after their writing class is over, they’ll return to blogging to write about something they’re interested in – music or fashion or baking or molecular biology. There are very few barriers to self-expression when it comes to blogging, which is part of the beauty of it, and I’m glad that I could be part of taking one more barrier down. Here’s a blog, here’s how to set one up, here’s how to write a post, add pictures, publish.

In the spirit of teaching young people (oi, when I did I become old enough to teach “young people” things??) about blogging, here are a few of my favorite blogs written by high school and college-aged people:

style rookie – now a sophomore in high school, Tavi Gevinson has been blogging since she was 11. ELEVEN. And yes, like with all prodigious children, it’s easy to laser in on the AMAZING YOUTHFUL AGE NUMBER and the fact that she sits front row at fashion shows and has appeared on Wait, Wait Don’t Tell Me (okay, is it just me – public radio nerd – that is wildly impressed with this particular factoid?). Also, she has her own online magazine for teens called Rookie Mag, which is all kinds of awesome – the kind of thing that I wish had been around when I was her age. But mostly, she’s got that rare quality of creativity and confidence that most teenagers and even most fully-grown adults (raising my hand) still struggle with. She’s got a unique perspective and it’s beautiful and weird and I can’t say I always get it, but it’s always, always interesting.

new tiger in town – a blog by Sophia Chua-Rubenfield, the daughter of the debated-to-death Tiger Mom. Sophia is whip smart and attending Harvard (no surprises there), but she’s also got a great sense of humor and her voice is a winning mix of maturity, idealism, and irreverence.

La Vagabond Dame – Natalie is seventeen, and her winter formal dress? was amazing. Her blog is a new find of mine, and I love her style. At some point it’s going to become weird (or weirder) to be taking style tips from a seventeen-year-old, but I think (hope?) I can still get away with it for a few more years.

the aftermath of rainbows and unicorns – Sam lost her mother and her older brother on 9/11, and has basically raised herself and her two little sisters since then. She’s a college student now, and she’s amazing. Hard-working, pragmatic, thoughtful, protective. I’m pretty much blown over in admiration for her every time I read her blog.

I Was A Foster Kid – LT was a foster kid. She’s been through hell, and she’s fighting her way out. She’s smart, articulate, and has a huge and tender heart. Her blog is both heartbreaking and inspiring.

Do you read any blogs by teenagers or young adults? Or are you a student with a blog who breaks my unscientific sample of college freshmen?

Slouchy Style

Today was my first day back at work. It’s hard to describe my job because it’s really sort of an odd gig. I guess it’s kind of like the TA-led discussion sections I had for large lectures in undergrad. Regardless, it was nice to see my students again even if they didn’t appear quite as excited as I was about returning to class. Because of that, we played an ice breaker game to ease the transition and I gave them candy.

Candy makes everything better. Except, I guess, your teeth.

This outfit just feels very slouchy to me, like everything is just hanging off my body. But not in a bad way, I hope. The tie-front blouse from Mikkat Market I’m wearing is one of my favorite pieces. I wear it with nearly everything; it’s very versatile. And I love the color of the BCBG Max Azria scarf I’m wearing. It’s actually two-tone with a bright pink-orange coral and then a more pale and subtle pink.

(I’m on the phone! Yubo called me mid-shoot.)

For the past year and a half I’ve embraced my inner geek and used a roller briefcase at school to carry my laptop and books. I actually have scoliosis. I’m fortunate that I still look pretty symmetrical from the outside (though my x-rays tell a different story), but carrying a heavy bag on a regular basis isn’t a good idea. This semester, however, I’m trying to carry a lighter load and use a large purse or canvas bag instead of my roller bag. I used to take all my notes on my laptop, but this semester I’m going back to handwritten notes. I think I retain the information better that way anyway. I’ll still have to use the roller on days I need to lug a lot of books to and from campus, but not everyday.

This canvas bag is from Kimchi Mamas, the Korean American mothering blog that I co-founded several years ago. On the front is the image of a woman in a hanbok wagging her finger (the Kimchi Mamas logo designed by one of our contributors, halfmama) and on the back is our motto: “Burn your tongue.”

(Why, hello there, toes.)

Blouse: Mikkat Market
Shirt: J.Crew
Pants: Mikkat Market
Bag: Kimchi Mamas canvas tote bag
Shoes: Marc Jacobs (old)
Scarf: BCBG Max Azria two-tone scarf
Nail Polish: essie watermelon

First Day of Spring 2012

It’s raining here today and like any good Angeleno, I have no idea what to do with myself when it’s raining. Is it even possible to take pictures outside when it’s raining? It must be, but I really have no idea!

On the bright side, I got to use my rainbow umbrella today, which I love to pieces, but would have looked weird in my indoor pictures. Also, apparently it’s bad luck to open an umbrella inside? So instead you have me posing awkwardly next to our piano. It’s a gorgeous piano though, is it not?

All this to say, I usually dislike indoor outfit shots and mine are no exception. Our house photographs horribly; the lighting is poor, the carpet is dark (ick), and a large portion of the house is wood-paneled (1960s ftw!). So this, my friends, was the best I could do under such horribly difficult circumstances.

Woe is me, right?

On the bright side, today was the first day of classes for the spring 2012 semester, and I attended a seminar class that is part of a college composition teacher training program I was accepted into right before we broke for the holidays last year. Next fall, my cohort and I will teach our own freshman composition classes. Since we’ll be spending quite a lot of time together over the next couple years, it’s quite fortunate that everybody in my cohort seem like genuinely nice people with sharp minds who are serious about learning to teach composition well.

After class, I went to dinner with a couple of women in my cohort that I knew from previous classes. We ate tacos and talked about theory, literature, and film (I admit, the conversation was a tad heavy on Colin Firth swooning) and laughed a lot. It was so fun! It’s so nice to make friends with people that share your interests (Colin Firth and otherwise).

My outfit was inspired in part by these images of Peony Lim and Alexa Chung, who are quite unreachable in their loveliness. And my silly necklace is just a fun, irreverent nod to my nerdy enthusiasm for the resumption of classes.

Sweater: Saks Fifth Avenue cashmere (hand-me-down from my mama)
Shirt: Anthropologie tunic
Skirt: Zara
Tights: J.Crew
Shoes: J.Crew
Accessories: Forever 21 reader pendant necklace and pearl earrings (gift)
Nail Polish: essie watermelon